random bit of writing #3

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“Has the Devil Ever Whispered Into Your Ear?”


And said,


“Take a hit?”


He has whispered


Into my lonely ear


It had to have been him


To take over my conscience


I was not a
Druggie


Not even a puff


Of a cigarette


Had ever tempted


My lips


But salvia


Was an unexpected friend


A feared enemy


I was a good girl


Whose only escape was


Reading about fantasy worlds


But now I am an


Addict


I love it


I hate it


I adore what it does for me


I despise what I have become


 


“At Eighteen”


I am the oldest


Of eight children


The favorite of my father


The envy of my mother


The perfect child


Of any parents’ dreams


I have never cut loose


Never been in trouble


Never gotten less


Than straight A’s


Varsity cheerleading


Varsity basketball


Despite a lack of a girl’s team


At my school I made


The varsity baseball team


I spent my summers swimming


Training for the Olympics


Scholarship offers flooded in


Because I was a star


But I never needed one


Dad is a brain surgeon


Mom is a cardiologist


I live in a world


Of overachievers


What a boring life


I’m sick of being


Perfect


Perfect daughter


Perfect student


Perfect role model


For seven siblings


“I Feel Like Art”


Put on display


To admire


Beautiful face


With green eyes


Auburn hair


High cheek bones


Full seductive lips


Flawless ivory skin


Athletic body


Every hallway


I travel down


Eyes follow


Men want me


Women want to be me


I am the cliché


Of perfection


So why do I wish


I was someone else?


The pressure of perfection


Is too much to bear


That’s why I took that first hit


And began my downward spiral

Created: Apr 15, 2012

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