I Spend Most Nights Trying

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I. I spent the night trying to stare god in the face with a bottle of vodka and a pack of cigarettes. Michael laughed because he says I keep looking for things that can’t be found. I’m constantly setting myself up for disappointment. II. The sky wore a starry face and inviting as it may be it was a reminder that the sun will consume our planet one day  and my son will be the only one that will think of me for short periods of time, at random moments, throughout some days. …I guess that nothing else really matters. III. I have too many questions, Mother; none which I really want answers for. the truth is heavy and I’m lifting my limit. So will you just tell me it will be okay. IV. A drunken embrace has left me with blues. He said “I’ve never kissed a stranger.” and I asked him if he’d like to try. Lips holding each other like hands; It felt like EVERYTHING to not be so alone for one moment. V. In your car, a song playing on the radio, every note caressed my memory like a finger ran softly down my naked spine and I felt for the first time in a long time not afraid of everything.

Created: Mar 05, 2012

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