If I could focus my melting mind.

By Mikl Barton

If I could focus my melting mind, this might be easier. I can’t even control my own breathing. The clutter that confuses me has led me to the dark, and I can’t find my way out. Myself, the one person I thought I knew, I should know, I have forgotten.

A revelation, reoccurrence, reestablishment, birth, emerge, define. Define.

To define yourself-make yourself-it must happen.

I'm losing.

Everything.

And by doing so, I have gained everything I already had, already had neglected.

Everything happens for a reason right?
Everything has meaning right?

Yes, this time it does.

I have the chance to prove self-metamorphosis.
I have the chance to keep what I've worked so hard for, and spent so much life losing.
I hope I can keep her. It’s too soon to say goodbye.






When I think of my heart,
I imagine every emotion.
Every emotion swirling inside a short fused bomb.

The chance of explosion has grown,
So much in the past few months.
Sometimes, my excitement, exhilaration, work their way out, exploding with ecstasy.
Unfortunately, my late destruction has heavily been weighed out with hate, jealousy, fear.
Pain.

The worst part I've found,
The worst part I've come to realize,
The worst part I've come to conclude.

It’s my fault.

The more I think,
The more I know,
There is no excuse, blame, reason

That I should feel this way.

It’s my fault.

And, I suppose, the only way to improve
Is to define my SELF.
By myself.

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Created: Jan 30, 2010

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