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1. Who are you and what do you do?

I'm Shells, and for right now, I don't do anything. I have a job working at the food place (yay, food service!) at the local Target, but I'm on leave. I go to technical school at night, I'm studying how to be a vet assistant, but I'm on break. (Well, only until the 7th.)
And little do my parents know, I have an overwhelming fear of my career choice - I'm afraid of bodily harm from animal teeth/claws.
I really want to do theatre and am going back to school to study it despite my lack of confidence. 

-> Going back to this site was no coincidence. I am now twenty-six and go publicly by the name Inigo or Misha. I work at a veterinary office, but not as a veterinary assistant like I once dreamed. I am a mere receptionist and I only work once a week. I have a child now. 

I still yearn for the stage.

2. What is the origin of your artist name?

loadmysoul has been my name since I was 17, I'm 21 now. I know I haven't had a lot of time to spend with "loadmysoul", but it's become an essential part of who I am. Among my friends, I am generally the one people go to to unload their problems onto. It is also a part of a line in my favorite song, Preparation, by Toshihiko Seki. "Preparation" was the anthem of the darkest time of my life. 

-> In this world, I survive by constants. "loadmysoul" has been with me for so many years - there is no looking back. Ever.

3. What has been your biggest challenge with your art so far?

I'm generally a writer, and I've been finding myself against a wall with that lately. Honestly, it's been killing me. 

-> I went back to college. Every English course that I took, I aced. My creative writing teacher was amazing. I adored him. I wish I could take that course again. 

4. Who or what is your biggest influence?

Everything strikes me as influential.

-> This remains true.

5. What is your wildest story?

Uh, damn. I got lost in Camden once. I almost died - yay cars.

-> Surviving my racist neighbor. I had just had my son, I had raging postpartum depression. I fought tooth and nail against my fiance and my friends abandoned me. He called me and my son a racial slur and I almost lost my will to live.

My C-Section was also a pretty wild story.

6. What is the last book you read?

My veterinary science book. That thing is a freakin' weapon.

-> I haven't had much time for books that aren't children's books. I read "That's Not My Penguin" today.

7. If you could be any character in fiction, who would you be?

Waugh, I have to choose? Well, I'm going to say Naomi Kimishima from the Trauma Center series. 

->Nyssa al Ghul. A strong, commanding woman. And a kick-ass assassin.

8. What couldn't you live without?

My family, boyfriend and friends. Ah, and animals. Animals are good. <3

-> My son. My fiance. My family, blood and chosen. And my four cats - Gambit, Sissel, Kamila and Noodle.

9. What is your secret talent?

For some reason, all my friends' parents love me. I don't understand why. 

-> Pretending to be okay. I am a master of "fake it till you make it". I always make it. 

10. Tell me about the last dream you remember having?

Uh, I stole a rare trading card (that I'm missing in my collection) from a store shaped like a boat. I showed my boyfriend and cried. It was only worth a penny, apparently.

-> I got nothing, unfortunately. I don't sleep that well! 

11. What are you craving right now?

Oh geez, either ANOTHER burrito or some gyoza.

-> Sleep. 

12. What was the last song you fell in love with?

Uh, Hallelujah, by BIG BANG. They're from Korea, yo.

-> Love Like You by Rebecca Sugar.

13. Can you hula hoop?

Sorta. One of my hips is wonky due to scoliosis.

-> Nope. Not a lick. 

14. What do you like?

Music from various foreign countries, anime, hanging with friends, cosplaying, writing, sewing, singing, photography, learning, animals.

-> Peace, chaos, music, sleeping, voices.

15. What do you dislike?

Being told that I can't, racism, animal cruelty, any form of abuse, snow, fraud, being cold. :(

-> Injustice, crime, fear, anxiety. 

16. What's the best piece of advice you've been given?

My uncle Andrew says, "Get an education, 'Chelle, and get a decent job. So if you end up with a deadbeat, you ain't dependin' on his money and you can leave his ass."

-> Don't regret a thing.

17. How and why did you start RECording?

I've always been RECording. Ever since I was little. I had a fascination with my dad's video camera as a child and always wanted to be the star of the show. 
I sang solos in elementary school, was always in the chorus, and talent shows... but as I grew older, the part of me that longed for the camera 
disappeared. I stopped wanting that type of attention in middle school. I guess it was adolescence kicking my confidence in the rear end. 
Recently, it's started to resurface in me, only not as always wanting the spotlight - to share the spotlight with others.

-> I started again because I saw a commercial. Why did I start posting again? Because I want to show my son that putting yourself out there isn't always a bad thing. I don't want him to inherit my anxieties. Ever. 

Created: Feb 02, 2011


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