Speak Up

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"Oh, you'll grow out of it! Why is your face so red? It's not that big of a deal. Don't you know the answers? Does she have any friends?" This and so many more comments were made throughout my teen years.
I was 'shy', couldn't stand up for myself and pretty much had panic attacks whenever someone I didn't know talked to me. I shoved it under the rug and listened to people when they said I would grow out if it.

Almost 32 years old and sorry, but I didn't grow out of those feelings. My biggest regret is not talking to someone about how I felt when I was younger. Everyday I wake up so exhausted because I'm already worrying about what will happen that day. 'Will I make it to work on time? Will I get into an accident? What if there's a detour and I don't know where to go? What will I walk into after my two days off? Was there any issues while I was gone? Did I enter that paperwork correctly? How are my babies? I hope they get to daycare alright. My house is a mess, I never have time to get things done.
I feel feel if I had spoken up when I was a teen and hit some help, maybe I wouldn't feel like this. There have been so many things I have wanted to accomplish by now but have been to scared to do. I guess it's time for me to finally speak up, even though I'm extremely afraid. Otherwise, it will be yet another thing I regret..

Created: Apr 26, 2017


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