Suicidal Love

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Ow. Ow. I cry in pain,


I lay on my side not wanting to die in vain.


You pushed me. You hurt me.


Furthermore you broke me.


I thought we would always be together,


but there you stood holding her like a feather.


 


Stop. Stop. I scream within.


I look away as you lean in.


You hugged me. You kissed me.


Furthermore you told me you loved me.


I thought we would never separate,


but instead you let me disintegrate.


 


Drip. Drip. Tears rolled down my cheek.


I tried to stop them but I was too weak.


You see me. You run to me.


Furthermore you try to comfort me.


By now you are at my side pleading,


But I push you away, my heart beating.


 


Thump. Thump. I get up and run away.


I feel as though I have run for a whole day.


You used to heal me. You used to care about me.


Furthermore you were always there for me.


I never want to ever see you again,


but write my note carefully with a pen.


 


Clink. Clink. I tighten the chain around my neck.


I give my note one last check.


I want to stop. I really do.


Furthermore I want you.


I am ready now to say goodbye,


I step off the stool, hanging myself, about to die.


 


Why. Why. I hear my mother call.


She is here with me after the fall.


I hope you miss me. I hope you feel bad for me.


Furthermore I hope you regret leaving me.


There is a flash of light, and then the room goes black,


but I whisper your name as my eyes roll back.

Created: Mar 08, 2015

Tags: heartbreak, poem, suicide, love, poetry

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