Last night, I had several intense dreams. Intense in the sense that I could really feel the emotions of the dreams. Here's the first one.
I was at dinner with some of my friends. My boyfriend was to the left to me, a gal friend of mine was to the left of him (I never got a sense of which one it was). I turned to the right to chat with my friends for a little bit, and when I turned back toward my boyfriend, I saw he and my gal friend give each other a peck on the lips. This panic came over me and somehow, I was convinced that it wasn't real.
The scene changed, and suddenly I was in a bedroom, sitting at a desk. When I turned to look around the room, I saw my supposed boyfriend on top of my supposed friend! They were both topless. I was so shocked and horrified, I grabbed his legs and threw him on the floor. I jumped on the bed and started yelling at the girl.
"WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!"
She honestly had fear in her eyes. "I don't know!"
"WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU DON'T KNOW? HOW CAN YOU NOT KNOW WHAT YOU'RE DOING? WHY IS YOUR SHIRT OFF THEN? WHY IS YOUR SHIRT OFF???"
Tears started welling up, but I didn't give a fuck. That bitch can cry all she wanted.
I went down to the floor where my supposed boyfriend was. Strangely, he looked different. Not like my boyfriend at all. I started yelling at him about what I just saw. I didn't see any change in facial expression. He just looked like he didn't have any remorse or didn't care about what I was saying. He just ignored me like I wasn't really there. The sense and emotions as a result of being ignored came back to me and suddenly these two people weren't people from my present, but from my past. It reminded me of a time of my real life when I should have been stronger, to put my foot down and not accept the treatment I was getting.
I put my face in my hands and sobbed.
I woke up in a sweat.
Created: Jul 30, 2010Document Media